I went climbing this morning at 7:20 after Skyline carpool. I was going to leave at 6, but then right before it saw a text that they needed a ride, cause their usual ride wasn't going in until later. So it worked out good. The elementary kids were home today (end of term in the district?) so I didn't need to hurry home to get them out the door, so Natalie was in charge and I took my sweet time doing lots of climbs. I did 31 total, one of which was my first V4 ever! It is a white one on the short end slab of the south boulder, but even though it was kinda on an easy section, I'll take it. I also did 6 V3s - most in the OG - I got the White, Red twice, Blue, and I got a new pink on the north boulder. Plus the freaking Pink in the OG that I hate. Purple is gone, should be a new one there for me to try on Wed. Took my time warming up today doing 6 V2 sends, 13 V1 sends, and 5 V0 sends. Later today I did stretching for 30 minutes on yoga blocks while K played with the train at violin. So NOD didn't have school, not sure why - maybe it's the end of term in the district maybe? So I told them to clean their rooms to earn ice cream (that I bought for dessert last night that we didn't end up using cause Corey made tapioca and Abi made cookies, so we had enough desserts) and so the kids got that for lunch and then I made them go climbing with me. They didn't really want to go, but I made them. I tried to belay Katharine first.
She didn't know what was going on and didn't like it.
So I let her be a quitter.
Thank you Natalie for documenting. After we let her loose, she ran around crazy, which I didn't like...
K was running wild more when O and D were "watching" her than when Natalie watched her.
K knows about phones, cameras, and selfies.
When I was belaying Owen, he was acting like it was so hard and that he couldn't do it, it looked a little ridiculous. He didn't make it up past half way this orange 5.5, neither did Daniel, and they both have done harder climbs than this before...
So I guess that's what I get for forcing them to climb. Although when it was time to leave they were like "Hey! I only got to go once!" and I was like "Yeah! And you were complaining about it and wouldn't do it! So I figured you were done, sorry... we'll do more next time." So yes, it was a little more stress than fun. Natalie gets points for having the best attitude and climbing the best. She did it three times, she did liked it. When I belayed her down, she flipped herself back and was hanging upside down like Spider-man. Then she did a few swings before I made her untie so her brothers could have a turn.
Natalie did the white 5.9 on the right above, which impressed me, then she did the orange 5.5 twice. And I gave in and turned on Bluey for K when Natalie wanted her last climb. That kept K in the kid area until we were done. I had told the kids they could all do 3 climbs, and Natalie was the only one who did.
What else - picked up A and L after school, went home to get Sophi and violins, then dropped A off at my moms on our way to violin, and talked to Wes for his p-day. He's doing good. Katharine is cute.
So it was a busy day. After we got back from violin, I saw Corey had sent a text asking if we could cancel Momentum. That made me sad.... I was hoping that if I take the kids, that Corey will be ok with us keeping our membership for a bit longer? Yes, the budget needs to be trimmed but I guess I was hoping we could cut out something else. But it's almost getting warmer... and we cancelled in April last year. But I that suggestion made me feel sad about our financial circumstances and I think that contributed to me have a good cry in the closet for the next 2 hours (could just be pms)...
Cry in the closet, a little around the house even though I tried to not be seen by the kids. Felt like I had calmed down enough that I could go make an appearance at my friend's bday party, so I headed on the short walk to her house, and then the sky looked like it does on Flying video, and that made me cry again. Corey has said before that maybe when he feels the peace that he cannot explain, it's because he's hit the ground and is dead. Feels like this fall will be the death of me..." and while I walked to a friend's house. I had said I'd come to a b-day party, so even though my eyes showed I'd been crying, I wanted to go to gift her a book. Luckily, after we got there, before I talked to too many people, I accidentally had a bit of wasabi on some sushi, so I was able to blame my red watery eyes on that! So she's a mom but was throwing herself a b-day party, which was such a cute idea. She invited people to come see the work they'd done so far on the house they are renovating, and said "bring your favorite thing (food, drink, self care hack, beauty tool, new small business, fav hike, song, book, vacation spot, podcast, etc etc etc)" not as a gift but just as a recommendation, but I did want to give her the Pres Hunter book that I love "That We Might Have Joy" that I usually pick up spares of when I'm at the thrift store, I can always find one there. I especially love chapter 16 from that book, which is his talk "An Anchor To The Souls of Men" (transcript or video here). I probably need to review it myself today as I'm feeling in free fall and could use an anchor. I'm feeling a weight of worry over Corey's work project, our insufficient income from it for the past year plus... like I was worried about this in Dec 2022 when I went to the temple with Ethan, and things have not improved... I have no idea how we are surviving. Our 2022 tax bill coming up that's been extended twice, not to mention the 2023 one that probably needs to be figured out. I don't think Corey likes me blogging that stuff here (sorry sweetie if you're reading this) so even though, for once, I AM actually writing this on time, I'll maybe post in in a month or two so he doesn't see it.
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