Just Dance

As I was cleaning this morning, I turned on some music. K and I were dancing and then I decided to turn on the songs via the screen so K could practice her Just Dance on youtube. 

It was super cute to watch, melted my heart. She'd just barely feel like she was getting the hang of one move (shaking down both hands), but then look up on the tv and see they were all doing something else! "Oh! They are pumping their fists in the air now! Got it!"

"Oh, nope... now they're doing a side to side slide..." But I loved it. Here are some little videos I took of her (unlisted on youtube but the links should work here hopefully? one, two, three of Dynamite and four) 

Katharine is so fun. We usually call her "Kafrin", with a "Ka - FRIIIIIN!" or "KAAA FRINNNN!" She's our favorite. She has been a roaming sleeper at night the past little bit. In the morning, the first thing I do is go find where she ended up. This morning, it was on the floor in the boys room. 

She rolled off of her pet bed and is tucked safely next to the wall. Where will she be tomorrow?

As we've been reading Alma this year, I've started doing something fun... like I was trying to wrap my head around the time frame of everything, so when it started saying in the "18th year of the reign of the judges" I decided "ok, I'll pretend that is 2018!" And then I went forward and backwards from there to get some time context for myself. I've been putting the year in the top corner of the page. And as I went back, I discovered that if Moroni was 25 years old in the 18th year, that means he was born in 1993! So not a 70s kid like myself, and he doesn't know the good life of the 80s, he was just one year old when I was graduating high school, and THEN he was the chief of the army in 2018?!? That's pretty wild.

So along with Just Dancing with Kafrin, that's been something else that's fun that I've been doing. 

One other note... back in May, the nurse in Wesley's mission recommended he get an Endoscopy, cause he choked a meat again. I said ok and was mentally preparing for this to be a $2000 dollar expense. We can do this... The nurse said she got a quote for $400, but I didn't think that could be right. Then Wesley asked for $300 for his first office visit. When we were at the reception for Joseph and Eliza, Wes called saying he was at the doctor and he needed another $700, ugh, so I just told him to charge it. He had the endoscopy done on July 5. Today found out that $700 was apparently just the first payment toward a total bill of over five thousand dollars.... $5283.71 to be exact. I got the bill today from the medical center where his procedure was done. 

It made me cry. 

Katharine saw me in tears and said "You ok mommy?" Yeah. She gave me a hug. "You need a tissue?" Yes. She got me a tissue. I love Katharine.

So I'm fasting and praying. We need help. God knows it. He's waiting though. I don't know the reason, but I will trust. 

Tonight while I was updating Wesley's blog a little bit (had to catch up a few weeks) and this meme he for last week hit the spot. 

"Oh, I don't drink alcohol or do drugs. I like my suffering RAW. Thanks." haha. Yeah I don't take those to escape, I'm sure I'd eat chocolate or ice cream if I had any on hand. Instead I am going to start going to an emotional resilience class offered by our stake, cause our ward needs to send a person, and so I volunteered. Maybe it will help if I have a group of people I can be honest with about I need help. Ugh, this whole faith and patience and trust mortality experience is really hard. Good and wonderful and hard and exhausting. It goes along with that quote by Sarah Ban Breathnach: 

"Both abundance and lack exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend...when we choose not to focus on what is missing from our lives but are grateful for the abundance that's present - love, health, family, friends, work, the joys of nature and personal pursuits that bring us pleasure - the wasteland of illusion falls away and we experience Heaven on earth." 

When things are hard, I'll try to just dance.